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11th July 2012

Went to meet Grace at Changi Airport today! So we sat at Coffee bean for like the whole afternoon haha. Such a fun way to recall those fond memories of mugging for A/O Levels. Seemed like forever ago haha. I think I've grown a lot in this holiday. Maybe not spiritually though :/ But I felt I grew as a person. I think that broken friendships and a broken relationship taught me to be a lot stronger. Some of which I shared with Grace today.

So earlier this year, I lost some jc friends. Everything I'm about to say is going to be in my opinion, I have no idea whatsoever about the other party's opinion on this matter. But I think that we always think that we are right. So I felt unfair because my friends actually used what I said against me. I think they conveniently forget to mention that they said stuff about each other too. And whats more, I said all those with no malicious intent. They were basically me ranting because I was angry at the moment. I understand that my friends have flaws and I still love them for who they are. But its sad that these little complains I had actually came back to bite me. It happened really a lot of times early this year and I grew so tired of it already. So I did let go of the friendship. And Grace actually reminded me today that maybe it is God intention to end all bad friendships in my life. Or friendship that doesn't help me grow. (No intention of putting the other party down) Anyway, I am really glad that I have such great friends surrounding me :D Yale Sarah Kexin Grace Yining Rachel Yong Nat. I just want to say I am so grateful for such awesome friendships (:

And I recently ended a relationship too. I think it taught me a lot, like I have to be more mindful. I realize that entering relationship is actually a really big decision and we shouldn't jump into it without considering carefully. I have a set of criterias or basic requirement that I absolutely did not follow before I said yes to a relationship. It ended up causing a lot of heartbreak. So I learn to stick to my set of requirements and to not jump into a relationship with anyone if they do not fulfill it (no matter how tempting it may be at the moment). However, it's difficult to advise people because one really has to go through this in order to grow. I can say now that I'm really happy where I am.

I guess my only fear is making new friendships in university now. teehee (: