Growing up

It suddenly hit me, that we are growing up too fast. I'm turning 19 in a few months and I don't feel 19 yet. My mentality is still stuck in the time we're in secondary school. I'm like a 15 year old stuck in a 19 year old's body. People look at me and expect a certain some thing out of me but the truth is I can't handle what I'm expected of. I feel like a little of my childhood is being taken away from me. I'm not allowed to have fun and I'm forced to grow up. In reality, I'm graduating from university in 3 years (if I manage to go through it). Just a short short 3 years, I'm going to join the work force and start working and saving. I've been trying to find the meaning and purpose I'm living for. I don't want to just work, earn money and that's it. I want to be able to do something I enjoy. Maybe something like traveling? But reality is harsh :/ I'm going to treasure this 3 years in university, my last shot at having fun haha.

People say it's hard to make good friends in the university. But so far, I feel really lucky and blessed to have met wonderful people in my OG. I'm glad that some of them actually feel the same way as me or are restricted by parents just like I am. I'm excited to start living in hall and have fun w my pebbles OG :D

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Haha, and I realize I'm getting a lot of page views because people are searching for nbs foc 12/13. Maybe I should blog in detail about it. But it was honestly a lot of fun (: And I <3 my OG.

PS: I JUST WEIGH MYSELF. I LOST 1KG AFT SUPPER @ CHOMPCHOMP. LOL DONT ASK ME WHY. BUT I YAY I LOST 1KG!!!! ^^
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