Confused

I'm totally confused and sleepy today. Again, I find myself having to make new friends. I'm so sick and tired of it. I used to love camps and love being high and enthu and all. But ever since going to JC, I guess I've just tone down super a lot. I don't enjoy going for camps and being all crazy and rah rah. And its camp season :/ I'm glad I got into camp though because after talking to a senior today, not being in camp means you're really excluded from a lot of things. There is really a distinct line between the campers and non-campers. I think that's really sad. Only campers are allowed to become the next year's orientation group leader, organizing comm etc. That also means that if you're not in camp you basically can't be in the committee even if you are really interested. That kind of sucks. I'm telling myself that I'm lucky I got a spot and I should treasure my spot! Hopefully when tuesday comes I'll feel less listless and more crazy! 

PS: A part of me is looking forward to break camp on friday~ weeeeeeee haha!

There's still hall camp wthhhh. Haha, uni life is really not like I thought it was. I'm starting to think I suit more of the overseas culture than the local one. Dang Yale, you're gonna have fun in USA and I'm super envious! Make many angmoh hottie friends :D